seeing their name pop up on a mutual friend's phone screen and feeling your stomach drop because you know you'll have to pretend you don't know who it is

The Light Sees What Hides Behind Your Mask

The afternoon stretches out, a long, flat road where you are expected to perform being okay. Then the phone lights up on the table between you.

A name. Your stomach drops.

You know you will have to pretend you do not know who it is, to smile while the silence screams. The light does not ask you to be convincing.

It only asks you to be present in the ache. There is a father who saw his son coming home from a long way off — he did not wait for the apology or the rehearsed speech.

He ran. Before the mask could be put back on, before the performance could begin — he ran.

The light sees the exhaustion behind your eyes and loves what is hiding there. You do not have to hold the pretense up for another hour.

The truth is already standing in the room with you.

Drawing from

Luke, Gospel of Thomas

Verses

Luke 15:20, Thomas 3

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