the paralyzing fear that making amends will only remind them of how long you were gone

The Light Does Not Do Math

The afternoon light is unforgiving; it shows every crack in the wall you tried to ignore. You are frozen, terrified that showing up now will only force them to count the years you missed.

But the light does not do math. It does not measure the distance you walked away against the distance you have left to return.

There was a man who sat by a pool for thirty-eight years, convinced his timing was ruined, that he had missed his chance to be whole. The light found him anyway.

It did not scold him for the decades. It simply said: get up.

The past is heavy, but the yoke you are being offered is easy. The burden of your absence is not yours to carry anymore.

You do not have to explain the time lost to be welcomed back. The light is not waiting for a perfect apology; it is waiting for you to stand up and walk into the room you think is closed.

The door is not locked from the inside.

Drawing from

John 5:6-8, Matthew 11:28-30

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