re-reading a sent message three hours later and feeling physically sick that you used the wrong emoji

You Are Not Your Worst Send

The afternoon light is unforgiving. It exposes the dust on the shelf and the typo in the email you sent three hours ago.

You open the thread. You see the emoji.

The wrong one. The one that changed the tone from warm to cold, from playful to sarcastic.

And your stomach drops. You are sitting at your desk, surrounded by the mundane noise of the day, but you are trapped in that one second of sending.

Re-reading it until the words lose their meaning. Convinced that this small, digital mistake has undone you.

That everyone sees it. That they know.

But the light that fills this room right now does not scan for errors. It does not highlight your flaws in yellow.

It simply sits with you in the middle of the mess. The kingdom is spread out upon the earth, even here, even now, in the middle of your regret.

You are looking for a condemnation that the light does not offer. The sun is still shining on your keyboard.

The air is still in your lungs. The mistake is real, but it is not the end of the story.

You are not your worst send. You are the light that holds the moment after.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, Matthew

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