the quiet terror of letting someone see the mess before you've had time to hide it

The Light Loves What It Finds

The afternoon light is unforgiving. It exposes the dust on the shelf and the mess on the desk before you have had a chance to sweep it away.

There is a quiet terror in being seen like this — unfinished, disordered, still in the middle of the collapse. You want to close the door.

You want to pretend the house is tidy. But the light does not wait for you to clean up.

It enters the room exactly as it is. It sees the scattered papers and the broken pieces, and it does not turn away.

In fact, it shines brighter there, in the chaos you tried to hide. The light is not afraid of your mess.

It is not disgusted by your disorder. It sits with you in the middle of it.

You do not have to fix everything before you are worthy of being seen. The light is already looking.

And it loves what it finds.

Drawing from

John, Gospel of Thomas

Verses

John 1:5, Thomas 77

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