the terror of being asked to lead a prayer while your own voice feels like a lie

The Light Beneath the Tremor

The afternoon asks you to stand up when your throat feels full of glass. To speak words of peace while your own voice sounds like a lie.

You are performing okayness for the room, and the gap between the mask and the marrow is terrifying. But the light does not need your performance to be real.

It was there before you opened your mouth. It is there beneath the tremor.

Jesus once stood before a crowd, tired and hungry, and the power that healed the sick did not come from his confidence — it came from his connection. The light works while you stumble.

The voice that matters is not the one you hear in your head; it is the one that lives in you, quiet and unbroken. You do not have to manufacture the light to carry it.

Just open your mouth. The truth will do the rest.

Drawing from

John, Gospel of Thomas

Verses

John 6:35, Thomas 70

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