the moment you successfully lie about being fine and feel a sudden, hollow grief that no one noticed you were drowning

The Light Sees Your Hidden Tremor

The afternoon asks for a performance, and you gave it perfectly. You said the words, you wore the mask, and everyone believed you.

But the moment they turned away, a hollow grief opened up inside your chest—the terrifying realization that no one saw you drowning. You are carrying a weight that would break a lesser thing, yet you walk through the middle of the day as if you are light.

The light knows the cost of that silence. It stood in the dust of the road and sighed before it opened the ears that could not hear.

It felt the weight of your closed-off places before it spoke the word. You do not have to keep the performance going for the light.

It sees the tremor in your hands that you hid in your pockets. It knows the grief you swallowed so you could keep moving.

The mask is for the crowd. But here, in the quiet of this hour, you can let it fall.

The light does not need your okayness. It only needs your honesty.

Drawing from

Mark, Gospel of Thomas

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