The Light Sees The Deleted Draft
It is three in the morning, and the cursor blinks like a heartbeat on a screen that is too bright for this hour. You type the truth—that you are drowning, that you cannot hold it anymore.
Then you stop. You delete it.
The fear whispers that your pain is just a performance, a clumsy bid for sympathy from people who are asleep. But listen.
In the deep dark, where no audience exists and no applause can be heard, there is no stage. There is only you and the silence.
The light that lives inside you does not measure your worth by your ability to suffer quietly. It sees the draft.
It sees the deletion. It sees the terror of being misunderstood.
And it does not turn away. The light was there before you typed the first word, and it remains after you erase the last.
You are not performing for the darkness. You are surviving it.
And survival is never a show.
Drawing from
Mark 14:35-36, Gospel of Mary 5:4-5
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