The Light Does Not Need Your Defense
It is three in the morning, and the room is so quiet you can hear the memory playing on a loop. You see the exact second their face fell.
The moment you opened your mouth to explain, to justify, to make it make sense, and the light in their eyes went out. You tried to build a bridge with words, but you only built a wall.
In this darkest hour, the weight of that explanation feels like a stone sitting on your chest. But listen.
The light does not need your defense. It never did.
There is a truth inside you that lives before the speech, before the excuse, before the fear made you talk. You came from the light, the place where the light came into being on its own accord.
That is your origin. Not the stumble.
Not the over-explanation. The silence between your heartbeats is where the truth waits.
You do not have to fix the look on their face tonight. You just have to stop running from the one inside you.
Drawing from
Gospel of Thomas, Matthew
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