the shame of hiding how much you resent the very person you are desperate not to lose

Light Enters The Mess Without Fear

It is late, and the house is quiet enough to hear the truth you have been swallowing all day. You are terrified of losing them, yet you resent the very ground they walk on.

That contradiction feels like a sickness in your chest. But listen — the light does not demand that your feelings be pure before it enters.

It enters the mess. There is a saying that the kingdom is inside you, not in the sky where birds fly or the sea where fish swim.

It is right here, in this ugly, honest conflict. You do not need to fix the resentment tonight.

You only need to stop hiding from the part of you that feels it. The light is not afraid of your anger.

It is already there, waiting for you to bring it forth.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, John

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