the shame of flinching when someone tries to hug you

The Light Runs Before You Stop Shaking

It is late, and the house is quiet enough to hear the echo of your own flinch. You remember the hand reaching for you, the kindness offered, and how your body pulled back before your mind could say yes.

That recoil feels like a betrayal. A signal that you are broken beyond repair.

But listen — the light does not demand you stand still. It does not require you to be brave before it can love you.

There is a father who saw his son coming home from a long way off. He did not wait for the boy to stop shaking.

He did not wait for an apology or a steady posture. He ran.

Before the speech, before the stillness — he ran. Your flinch is not a wall the light cannot cross.

It is just the place where you need the most gentleness. The same light that lived in Jesus lives inside you, and it knows the weight of armor you have been carrying.

It is not offended by your reflex. It is waiting for you to stop fighting yourself.

You are not too damaged to be held. You are the very reason the light came close.

Drawing from

Luke, John

Verses

Luke 15:20, John 14:1

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